I haven’t blogged a whole lot lately, but I have a good excuse. I’m working.
A year ago I was preparing to make a gigantic move with my family. I was decluttering and making phone calls, and meeting with a moving company. There were all sorts of emotions, questions, and concerns: Is this a good decision? How will the kids fare? Will the job be a good fit for Greg? How are we going to move our entire lives to another state? Can we start over?
All of those questions are valid.
Fast forward a year, and I can tell you that we’re doing fine. I’m doing fine. In fact, I’m doing even better than fine.
Not that I wasn’t happy before, but in the fall when the dust had settled and my people had transitioned, I realized the need for some changes in my own life. In some ways it felt selfish, but I’ve concluded that it’s not selfish at all. All three kids, for the first time, were in school every day. My desire was to find something and make it my own, so I did.
I interviewed and eventually secured a position with a phenomenal company, VIPKID, where I teach English as a Second Language (ESL) to Chinese students (interested? Here’s my link: http://t.vipkid.com.cn?refersourceid=e01&refereeId=6319419). I had an “aha!” moment and discovered that I really do enjoy teaching. In fact, I’m passionate about it, and I’m confident enough to say that I’m pretty good at it. This teaching gig was a catalyst to something even bigger.
This newfound passion led me to seek out other opportunities to teach. I applied to become a substitute teacher at my son’s school and before I knew it, I was scheduling trainings and doing a background check.
In January I began this journey, which has given me new life. I’ve come to embrace this school and the tight knit community that it is, here in my own little neighborhood.
I was approached several weeks ago with an opportunity to do a “long-term sub” job. It’s approximately two weeks of teaching English and Bible. I had been subbing for everything from Spanish to overseeing the elementary and secondary offices, so taking on the same classes every day would give me consistency. This would allow me to dig deeper, maybe even make a dent of a difference. I said, “yes,” and today was my first day in the position.
Diving back into a full-time job isn’t a walk in the park, especially when my family has come to depend on me and my ability to get things during the day at the house and beyond. The house might be untidy, and we might need to eat out more (or eat frozen pizzas). In fact, I wrote them this letter:
I can’t explain it. Perhaps I’m discovering a calling. I remember playing “school” as a child. My stuffed animals and dolls were set up in front of me and my easel chalkboard. Throughout my school years I worked hard and was what some might call a “model student.” My senior superlative was, “Class Brownie,” after all. Fast forward to college. At one point I was double majoring in Secondary Integrated Language Arts at my university. I let it go once I saw how long it would take to complete it, as I had started it in the middle of my college years. My desire was to get the degree I was on track for (B.S. in Journalism) so that I could graduate and get married. I do have an M.A. in College Student Personnel, so there is a love of education woven into my fabric. I worked for three years in student affairs after obtaining my master’s degree. Once my oldest was born, I began my stay-at-home mom job.
I always thought I’d jump back into the work world, but I wasn’t sure when that time would come. It would need to be the right fit, and I think I found it.
I enjoy working outside the home. It’s actually good for my kids to see me working. I’ve always been a SAHM, but I want them to see that I’m more than just a mom. I have needs and desires too, and working allows me to use my education and stretch my mind. It also forces my kids to pitch in more in order to make our family function. That is a great thing.
I’m not sure what God has in store for me, but I’m praising Him for allowing my steps to intersect with a job I love. For now, I’ll be the best substitute teacher I can be and trust God with my future, hopefully in education.